Ep 2. He Still Haunts Me
- February 21, 2021
- 42 min
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In Evil Lives Here season 9 episode 2, titled "He Still Haunts Me," viewers are introduced to the story of a woman named Jessica and her experience growing up with her father, who was a violent and abusive alcoholic. Despite his horrific behavior towards her and her family, Jessica still felt a sense of loyalty to her father and struggled to come to terms with the trauma he inflicted upon her.
The episode begins with Jessica recounting her childhood and the early signs of her father's abusive behavior. She remembers him coming home drunk and lashing out at her mother, often leaving her with bruises and broken bones. As a child, Jessica was both terrified of and protective of her father, feeling like she needed to shield him from the rest of the world.
As Jessica got older, her father's abuse became more intense and frequent. He would isolate her and her siblings from the outside world, rarely allowing them to leave the house or interact with other people. He would also verbally abuse them, calling them names and telling them they were worthless.
Despite the trauma she endured, Jessica still struggled to leave her father behind. She recounts moments when she would try to confront him about his behavior, only to be met with denial and deflection. Her father would often blame her or her mother for his abusive behavior, refusing to take any responsibility for his actions.
As Jessica moved out of her family home and started her own life, she tried to distance herself from her father and the trauma he inflicted upon her. However, she soon realized that the scars he left behind were not easily healed. She found herself struggling with anxiety, depression, and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), all stemming from her abusive childhood.
Throughout the episode, Jessica grapples with the complex emotions that come with growing up with an abuser. She struggles to reconcile her love for her father with the pain he caused her, and wonders if he was truly a monster or if there was still some good in him.
"He Still Haunts Me" is a powerful and emotional episode that shines a light on the long-lasting effects of abuse. Through Jessica's story, viewers are able to see the ways in which trauma can shape a person's entire life, and the difficult journey towards healing and recovery.